I'm a little early off but, I want to get this going.
2008 had it's really fun and awesome moments but I have to be frank, this year was horrible!
O8 has gained the title " Worst Year Ever" in my mind and life. This was the highest level of frustration I've had. As I type this post I'm filled with sadness and my hope is draining from with in me. So much Humiliation and feeling trapped this year. Amongst the good news of becoming an Art Director for a Christian Film Ministry, A new Urban Artist Crew, Caricaturing parties, being on a live gospel CD, meeting amazing musicians, paying off my car and making new friends this year, this year had too much negative stuff filling the in betweens. I've fallen into the credit trap, got laid off, fired, my Mom's Cancer returned, and really learned what being poor is. All this one year after I graduate college. My goodness my degree really feels like a joke right now. Why can't I get a job in my field!? It's been a struggle to practice anything when you continually get rejections. Aarrg! I'm really tired of my life. It seems like no matter what I do nothing gets better. Everything feels meaning less. I can't help but ask why?! Why can't get a job? Why can't I be happy? Why can't I leave Vallejo? Why can't I be positive? Why can't I see myself better? Why can't I come to terms with my race? Why can't I find and experience the change that I've dreamt about since I was young?! I'm so tired of saying I screwed up and so tired of being humiliated. Maybe I shouldn't have high hopes. Maybe I'll never be more than a letdown ....
I guess that's what I'll forever be.....
As of January 2009 I'm going to be updating the branding to this blog and all my other
social/business networking pages. Studiorisingstar will still be my biz/studio name but this blog in particular will go through a name change and change of style. It will be a new year and I want to try to takes steps toward real change. I'm going to need Jesus' help for it though. Merry Christmas to everyone but the way things are right now I'm just not into the season. I want a Positive Change in my life so much..... see you all next year.
-Brandon "SRS" Robinson
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
Man now I really gotta get a Wii! This is the successor to Vanillaware hit Odin Sphere.
MDB has the same hand drawn Traditional Animation of Odin Sphere but the story is inspired by Japanese Mythology rather than Norse Mythology like Odin Sphere. Once again it's hook is not only the Action/RPG game play but Vanillaware has created an eye pleasing mythic Japan with the fantastic Character Design , Layouts, and the classic 2/D animation that most American Games and film companies use less of. Man if only US game companies would be brave enough to use the great US 2/D animators and do something along the lines of this game! Only if there were people who were brave enough to create a games that were not about sales but filled with creativity. Check it out yallz!
(Photos from IGN.com)
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
Sup Blog world! Well I've been wanting to do this posting for sometime now especially after President Elect Obama's win this past month. I've opened up about my influences for those who wish to get to know me and today I'm opening up and talk about mypersonal experiences being an African American .
In January of 2008, my sister asked me a very simple and very interesting question that I'd never given much thought to until now. " Why don't you draw many black people? "
I laughed a bit but, I began to think about more after she went back home. The thought bothered me. To be honest this wasn't the first time I heard that question, a kid I knew back in Junior High asked me the same thing. He assumed because of my Anime style at the time I was drawing mostly asian characters . I didn't have an answer even back then.
As looked at African American artists I admire like LeSean Thomas, Carl Jones, David Williams, and others , their art and characters have a true understanding of our culture. Yet when it comes to my application for some reason I want to draw other cultures aside from my own. I can't help but wonder if there is something deep inside me that causes this. I know I'll find answers in my past experiences.
I had a tough time as a youth growing up in the town I lived in. I was constantly harassed by other black children because of the way I spoke , the things I liked, and the way I dressed. They called me "White Boy" and would beat me up and steal my things. I felt like a great outcast even though I had the same skin color as they did. Eventually these feeling would lead me on a long journey to define my identity.
In my search I discovered how much people don't understand one another and the horrible stereotypes that have caricatured African Americans negatively. I've never liked the way the media and pop culture has painted African Americans. We're always portrayed as thugs, drug dealers, sex crazed, angry, uneducated, drug addicts, violent and it's celebrated. Where as if your an African American who doesn't fit any of those stereotypes your " Not Black enough" or "acting white". I've been on both sides of the coin from people calling me Less Black or assuming that I was just another weed smoking G. I always wondered why can't I be accepted for who I am as a person rather than people just projecting their expectations, fears, or ideas on to me.
It's frustrating trying to be a good citizen , christian, or man for that manner when your over shadowed by a wall of negativity and negative images of what some believe being "Black" is all about. I was so happy on Nov. 4th when Barrack Obama became our country's President Elect.
His background, his values, and his election as our next President have truly set the bar higher
for African Americans to better themselves. I think that's the heart of the matter to me.
As an artist and as a christian I want show to people that they can have a better life than what they are excepting of today. I may not have drawn black characters because of self hatred, but because of Godly wisdom and my experiences caused me to create characters who were not caricatures but a wonderful reflection of the diversity that our world and God has to offer. There is a lot more I could talk about but yeah I've talked my head off already.
By the way the Obama painting is a work in progress and I will be sending it to the Pres. elect before he goes into office. I will try to make prints for Sale for those who like it. Thanks for viewing.